Has anyone ever had their heartbroken so bad that they feel it in other parts of their body? like cold feelings in your stomach, emptiness? Love is the toughest thing I deal with in my life. I'm constantly misunderstood and judged for my past, I'm a really sensitive guy and yes jealous and insecure at times cause I know I'm a skinny dude all of the anxiety stuff I've been through has been about my relationship I've just hid it from you all, I always wanna be a better version of myself. Do I always succeed ... No I don't 😔... so I'm sitting on this plane completely devestated and my heart is shattered I try to hide it all the time and use subliminal messages cause I don't want to seem too emotional but you guys have literally been such an amazing support group for me. And my ride or dies Despite the people who wanna see me fail. I'm actually just devastated and my heart hurts so much right now 💛 > 💔 I'm sorry for not always being the greatest guy in my relationships but I love LOVE so much and I will always try to project that. All I ever wanted was someone to love me for who I am insecurities jealousy struggles successes and all of that. I'm literally on a different plane connecting though Chicago a place I love and hate because of my past relationship and I can't stop listening to rocky " first date" song and it's killing me heart currently shatters again*
I don't know what else to say or why I even wrote this on the plane but I felt as if I needed to do so.
The world can be a cruel place and the people in it. All I wanna do is love them and show them what it's like for someone to lift you up and be there for you and love you especially when someone needs it.
I guess you just gotta have that trait in you of compassion and empathy.
I'm so sorry everyone for this I just struggle at times w love and that's what all my new music i produce and write is about that and the love I feel I never got in my last relationship I'm devastated my heart has shattered. But I'll put it back together don't you guys worry I love
You my darlings thank you for being there for me more than anyone else ever, besides my family ofCOURSE.
And p.s listen to "first date" on the rocky soundtrack it's beautiful and is making me ball my eyes out and feel completely heartbroken but communicative and expressive. All I can do. It keeps me safe it keeps me alive. Being able to communicate.
Don't ever be w anyone who doesn't want to hear you're feelings. It will always end bad. It did for me 💔 be with someone who is compassionate and cares about making you feel happy. You should never be with someone who tells you to "shut the fuck up" because your annoyed cause you couldn't talk to them for 7 hours when Im NOT even being disrespectful myself, You should never be w someone who hangs up on you and leaves you feeling unsettled or unresolved all because they're too immature to handle confrontation like an adult. OR
Someone who doesn't care about posting a picture with you for your anniversary or hiding me to your friends and family for months at a time because of judgment passed on me. I'm sick of it.
God please show me someone who will love me for the man I am now and show her to me I will cherish her I swear to you. 💔
You know who you are.
You broke my heart.